Saturday...

Here i am, at home on a saturday afternoon, at 1.30pm....almost everyone is out, some went traveling, some went out to do grocery shopping...
i chose not to go anywhere....was that a right decision?

I was giving the earliest invitation to both places which 2 grps of my frens went to....but i turned both down...cos i decided i wanted to spend the weekend resting, catching up with family and frens, and to clear some work...
in life, it's alwaiz abt tradeoffs....
i chose to stay home, and of cos for dat, i hav to give up the traveling tales and experience with different ppl....but at the same time, i get to gain wat i had set out to achieve...which are the points i listed above...

well, i woke up tis morn reali earli, perhaps cos my biological clock has oredi been tuned to dat waking-up time...i dreamt of my family last nite, dat they have come to the US to visit...and we were traveling together....
yah aniwaiz, i spent the morning chatting with a few frens...and my sis...
i realized dat i had not been talking to some frens as much as i have been wanting to recently....
prior to the festive period, i still felt dat i was maintaining my networks with Singapore side pretty well....hmm, dat onli means one thing....
dat i hav to work harder for now le.....reali don wan to drift apart from my frens who are in Singapore now...

maybe i will sound a little unhappy in tis post...
cos recently, i had been a little unhappy with some ppl here who i felt dat haven't been polite enuff to me....i dono y, but some ppl 'seem' to hav some issue with me....
am i too high-profile dat i'm making some ppl unhappy?

right, i'm going to be unabashedly expressing my views here, and wat i tink the situation is....
i dono, but i had the door slammed in my face by someone sometime last wk for a very minor thing, i just didn't wan to go do grocery shopping...dat's all!!!
and i was right in the midst of a meeting when i was being interrupted...and after a short debate, when i was determined dat i wasn't going to move my butt....
dat's when i got the door in my face.....
and considering dat i had been reali nice to my fren, whom i give the benefit of the doubt to (maybe just wasn't in a good mood), i felt dat i was being taken for granted for...

after the room shifting issue, there has been sort of a change in the dynamics here in the house too...and sometimes i kinda feel dat i'm deliberately being left out from some thgs.....
i wasn't particularly pleased with the need to shift rooms, and in fact, i was even a little pissed with the last min change and stuff....but well, i got over dat....
now.....i dono whether it is dat i'm too sensitive, or whether isit i'm juz too busy with all my commitments (i got quite alot more than the typical peron here) or whether it is reali the case...
whatever it is, i tink i'm still maintaining my relationships with everyone else pretty alright....

right, i don wan to tink or talk abt dat....maybe i'm juz too busy....and dat it's coming to me....
right now, i need to complete my work....dat is imperative....

i'm juz ALWAYS stuck with the dilemma of how i treat ppl....
not nice to ppl - just not my style....
too nice to ppl - sometimes get taken advantage of....

and i noe it when i'm being taken for granted for or when ppl take advantage of me....
perhaps i shld sometimes be a bad guy too....
nice ppl don necessarily alwaiz get the kind of treatment they ought to get....

Well, after having said so much, it still wun change the way i treat ppl i guess....
i'll alwaiz be me, my style of treating ppl, of treating my fren....if i hav to be tougher with some ppl sometime, i might be able to, but if i hav to change my stance entirely....i can't do so....

so yah, as i have said umpteen times before, if u r reading this, u hav to bear with my grumbling and complaints....especially when u shld noe dat i'm a naggy person....

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Moving on, i juz wanna mention that i'll miss Chinese New Year in Singapore so so so so much....
I'll miss Chinatown too....and all the stalls....and which i go at least once every yr to bask in the atmosphere...
and the 果冻!
one of my absolute favourite chinese new year sweets! it's jelly though...hehez...

i'll miss my family's reunion dinner, my visits to relatives and frens....
red packets by my parents and everyone else...
the nice food...bak kwa....and all dat...hehez...
and my celebrations with my fren....my WiseUtd bro...my EE bro...and many many other grps of frens....for KTV, for reunion dinners, and one of the thg i'll miss the most is yusheng!!!
wah, i lau yusheng many times a yr wan lor....
let's see whether i'll get a chance to do so here....even once i oso happy...

yah, and by now, i'm sure dat if u r still reading, u shld be able to sense the strong feeling of how i wanna be back in Singapore right.....
hahaz....
yah, i hav no qualms abt saying how much i miss Singapore and how much i miss my family and my frens....
if anyone sees tis as a weakness, den i'm afraid to say dat the person is weak him/herself...

i say whatever i like to say, with responsible words of cos....
and i express my thots and feelings freely too....

while i am still here in the US, for the next 5mths and abt 3 weeks, I'll definitely continue to strive hard, and will bring back to Singapore new achievement and accomplishments....

worry not everyone, i will definitely take gd care of myself in the midst all the commitment and business....u all work hard too, and i wan to hear some new accomplishments from all of you when i return!

if anyone thinks i'm a pushover...
i'm not...
u don wan to test my limits....i guarantee u dat...