Tuesday...
Last nite's dive lesson was pretty tiring....we didn't reali swim alot...but somehow after the 4hrs training, i juz felt pretty tired after dat....and i shldn't hav slept at 4am again last nite.....cos i'm feeling reali drowsy now.....
and there's training again tonite.....arghh....
i haven't sent out the file to get the postal address to all the frens whom i've thot of sending to....so far, i've onli sent to those whom i've seen online....
as there are too many frens, i've so far onli thot of sending a certain number of them onli....cos i don wan to get so many addresses and in the end, do not hav enuff time to mail to all of them....
it doesn't matter the length of time which we've been frens....it's the quality dat counts....
i guess i'll be online more often nxt wk....and by den, i muz send out to all those whom i wanna send to...
yesterdae, 3 of them sent the file back with their details....Zhiwei, Elysia and Meijia....
they said some thgs which made me feel appreciated and touched....
Elysia even replied with a long email...hahaz, kinda unexpected frm her....
ZW replied with some words which well, were my exact sentiments....
MJ was her mischievous self again...hahaz.....
From the first dae of application till todae, all the NOC profs, managers, program directors, alumni and seniors have said dat it'll cause a 'paradigm change in mindset', 'it's a once in a lifetime opportunity', 'it'll change your view of the world'....and to quote an email i received yest from an alumni, he said... 'it'll possibly be a major changing point in your life'.....
it cant be too wrong since everyone who has administrated it or experienced it is saying so...
hmmm, how will i change?
will i reali become a stronger, better and more entrepreneurial person?
will i become more pragmatic?
will i become more materialistic?
will i become more worldly-wise? or streetwise?
will i become smarter?
will i become more successful?
will i be a better networker?
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wat do i want?
wat am i expecting?
i want all the positive changes, i wan to be stronger in whichever aspect dat i'm oredi strong in....i wan to learn to be better in aspects which i'm weaker in....
i wan to be amongst the best.....
BUT, amidst all these, i still want to be the same old me inside....i wan to be the Jinfa my frens noe....with the various improvements...
losing one's roots is the worst thing dat can happen to anyone....
it is way too costly to win the battle but lose the war.....
i hav no intentions of losing both.....but if the need arises, i'll choose to win the war, a choice any other person would instinctively choose too....
there is resistance to change....and tis resistance is frm me myself....i gotta learn to manipulate the resistance to an apt level and learn the new rules of this game....
kk....i gotta go read my dive theory book, CS and ZW are light years ahead of me! i've been too slack.....hehez.....
maybe i'll take a short power nap while reading the book oso.....
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