Wednesday...
Jason, Aunt Michelle and Me - CNY Day 2 and 3 (Chalet)
WiseUtd Reunion Dinner - CNY Day 3: Guoyong, Chuan, Junhui, LongKun, Me, Kevin, Junxian, Ah Pek and Shengye
Day 2 was spent at the changi chalet with my relatives...my dear aunts, uncle and cousins....Jasmine brought her bf, Ah Bee, well we've talked quite a number of times oredi, so tis time, we got to know each oth a little bit more...Sis brought Davis along...he's still so quiet....though tis time he at least tried to smile to me more...
I thot my luck had changed...but on the second nite of gambling, i lost instead....overall lost $15....okie lah, not dat bad....but the streak continues....my losing streak year aft year....doesn't matter..i'm not a gambler aniwaiz...
Day 3 - I left the chalet at around 2 and headed for Kevin's house for our annual WiseUtd Reunion Dinner....9 of us turned up....it was very fun...cos we prepared the food ourselves...Ah Pek was our main chef and he orchestrated the entire preparation....we had Yusheng, Pasta, Clam Chowder and Peach Jelly! wat a spread....ah pek ah....i wanna bai u as my teacher can?! wld love to try ur signature breaded special chicken cutlet soon! nxt time ur gf sure very lucky wan lor....kauz....hahaz...i muz learn frm u le... =)
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The long long wkend passed so fast....day after day of celebrations....i had lotz of fun....but todae, i felt a little grumpy after waking up....well, i continued to feel so during lectures....thanks junhui, after our chat on the way home juz now, i felt better....but now i'm beginning to feel grumpy and irritable again....i was abit rude to my mum, not exactly rude but juz wasn't as nice to her as i shld hav been....sorry...
i juz feel so distracted....can't focus....i noe i shld concentrate on my top priorities....ohh well, now i have even lost my definition of my top priorities for now....certainly, my studies are, my project is....my ccas, i dono? there is sth else....but isit my top priority? i'm getting a little weary....so earli in the semester....it doesn't bode well....
pls focus Jinfa....pls pls....it's not like u to feel down for so many hrs at any one time....Zhiwei asked me to motivate them prior to our meeting juz now....i juz couldn't....how could I when i couldn't even manage to cheer myself up? i guess it's partly due to the fact that I hav alot of work left undone.....
2 nites ago, in the wee hrs of the nite, while at the chalet...i was pondering abt some issue....i realised dat as I grow up, or rather, as ppl grow up, when they face problems, they tend to get lesser help from external sources...Or rather, adults are expected to solve their own problems?? Is that the way it should be? Friends are definitely a source of help, and sometimes good listening ears, but they too have their own problems or worries...so sometimes i feel paiseh to keep wanting to confide in frens oso....I dono, but for me, i don mind listening to frens and giving them sound advice....even at the expense of some of my personal time and space....perhaps i'm still stuck in the phase between a teenager and a young adult??
tinkin too much sets me into TireD mode....blogging helps....it's an avenue where i can vent my frustration....the laptop can't possibly say 'I'm sorry but i'm busy right now....maybe u shld look for someone else to talk to...'...hmmm, i tink i'm feelin a little better aft pouring out my thots....hopefully i'll be back to my normal self in 2hrs time??
I should focus for now.....and maintain it.....I'm sure i'll be fine in no time....dat's the real Jinfa....
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