Tuesday...

it was a zombified day at work todae...i was so terribly tired dat my brain was deep fried early in the morning with everyone pulling me in all directions and having work pile up before another task could be even completed...

was juz packing my luggage....obviously, i can't fit everythg in...hav to leave some stuff to bring back in july instead....as i was packing my stuff, lotz of memories came flooding back...from the daes in secondary school to nus....to the dae i was at the airport, 7/7/2006, to the entire 10mths+ i've been here....
all the experiences, all the lessons learnt, everything of everything...
it has been so much over tis last 10mths +....

i'm feeling a little stressed out now...it's a period of change for me, and actually, i'm glad i'm going back for abt 2wks instead of going back straight....
i noe she's feeling a little stressed and sianz....partly cos of work right after exams...i can totally comprehend that....i guess it's a period of change for both of us and for my family too....another person in the house, but of cos, it's a good change...juz dat everyone's juz gotta used to a new lifestyle...
i gotta get used to a new lifestyle for the nxt 2wks for sure....a good preview for me before i return in july...
packing is kinda stressful....and planning for my 2wks in singapore is stressful too...my schedule is pretty tight oredi....i still gotta work from Singapore....remotely....dat's one....
second, i got 3 different business meetings to attend, for each business agenda, there r at least a couple of meetings....startup@singapore competition, solar tech cum fyp and another business proj a close fren of mine has been working on with me....
third, i got a couple of conferences to attend during the same period....
the rest of the time, of cos, will be spent getting over the jetlag, getting used to the weather, some leisure, and of cos the most impt of all....i tink i can afford a few gatherings with a few grps of frens....WiseUtd, EE bros, some very close frens, mj, and of cos my family...which includes my grandma too....

2 wks certainly isn't going to be enuff for everythg....but i juz hav to make the best of the time i guess....
it's kinda stressful cos of tis fact....i reali need an organizer phone....sometimes i forget the appointments that i have planned well ahead of time....

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i wanna thank everyone for ur help, ur support, whether it is moral, mental, physical or in any form, ur encouragement, ur care and concern, ur relentless cheering, and everythg from everyone....i reali appreciate it alot although i may not have expressed it sufficiently sometimes....
at the back of my mind, all of u, family and frens r alwaiz there....the strongest pillar of support i have...

My confidence is also largely built on the confidence I have in not onli myself but oso my frens....surrounded by close frens who r intelligent, capable and most imptly of all, ppl whom i can truly trust....i can't help but feel even more confident of any endeavor i decide to undertake....
in my future endeavors, i will definitely still need the support of everyone....

like i said, i've got many plans ahead for the 1yr and more....
but i'm hesitant in elaborating now online cos i'm still weighing my options....so i'll prolly reveal them a little a time when i feel that the time is ripe to do so....

and partly cos i feel dat it's no point in saying so much....i'd pretty much prefer to execute first, or at least start revealing some information onli after i've made some headway into my decided course of action...
cos i've seen so many ppl who TALK so big but r actually airheads.....did nuttin but talk...and brag...and again, dat disgusts me....yikes...
so nowadays, i guess it's part of a defensive action...i don even wan to tell my plans to too many ppl oredi....at least not the ppl here.....but i guess i'll still be willing to share them openly with my frens back in Singapore...and again, by frens, i mean my real close frens...which i believe i still hav quite a number of them....

thgs r looking pretty exciting though....and my entrepreneurial passion and vision r both burning more strongly than before oredi....

ohh, okie, before i forget, sorry abt the digression...
i reali long to do volunteer work again back in Singapore....i wanna go back to do the Yishun Wonderkids....which i noe has been renamed to Reading Stars....
nevertheless, volunteer work reali makes me happy...makes me feel down to earth, makes me feel dat i'm taking a temporary escape from the evil world out there...and most imptly, makes me feel like myself....
i wanna make ppl smile, seeing them happy makes me warm and happy inside....

well well, there r like tons of thgs i wanna do...

i've got so much on my mind....i wish there's someone whom i trust wholeheartedly and who i'm very close to right in front of me physically now whom i can confide in and share my thots with...
unfortunately, and sad to say, i don tink there's anyone here who fits dat criteria totally....there r a couple who fits it partially but have not been subjected to the test of friendship long enuff yet....
so tis blog is prolly the closest avenue of thots sharing to wat i desire to have....until at least, when i return to Singapore...

last but not least, i've not bought gifts for everyone yet....
hope u all understand, tis has been an ultra busy period for me...i don even get enuff sleep le....
besides, my plan was to get for u all when i return in july cos while traveling for that 3wks, i'll be picking up souvenirs from all over the continent....as opposed to the trips i go here and there abt once a mth....

alright, 4daes before i fly....can't wait....
missing everyone lotz...

tIRed Beyond deScriptiOn...