Monday...

















It's one of those nights again...
One of those nights when I have so much on my mind that I have to blog about which otherwise, I wouldn't be able to fall asleep....
Let me first briefly talk about my weekend in NYC...
Singapore Day in NYC was a HUGE success...it really really is....Great food, Singapore's weather (hottest weather in NYC for 2007 so far was recorded on that day!), nice Singapore performances...we had the ge tai, Hossan Leong, Eric Khoo's films...etc...
I had the opportunity to speak to a lot of high level people that day and also took photographs with them....Hossan Leong, Eric Khoo, Roy, the Director of the Overseas Singapore Unit in the Prime Minister's Office and also DPM Wong, who was the guest of honour..
Pardon my messy hair...I really need a good ol tub of trusty wax I used to use back in Singapore...
I felt even more patriotic after the event....I think I already am an extremely patriotic person...one of my friends commented that I'm a nationalist when introducing me to her friend last week!

Aniwaiz, clubbing in NYC on sat night was a new experience....which I won't talk about tonite...
The Broadway Musical which I watched on Sunday was really cool, Mama Mia...really really good!
Well, again, these are things I'll talk about another time...
Photos too, will be shared next time....

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Now, to talk about what I really wanted to talk about....
In the last few months, I have been getting more and more skeptical about trusting people here...In fact, I don't anymore....At least, I don't do so completely anymore...
Oftentimes, I have things to share...Sometimes, I yearn for someone I can confide in physically here...
I used to feel that I could do so here, but increasingly, I have been getting more and more unsure....
This has definitely been one of the factors which has been tiring me out here...
Politics is one of the problems....Optimistically, the environment here has shown me the ugly side of the real world....I have had first hand experience....

And trust me, it's really ugly sometimes, and oftentimes, nauseating....
I have chosen to spend my time, efforts, resources, energy and focus on other things which I think are more important....Very often, I have chosen to remain lower profile to avoid the politics....The actions by some people really irks me, but yet, I find it meaningless to lower myself to their levels...and why should I make myself angry over things which are not worth being angry with?

Alas, this is easier said than done...Sometimes, I still get pretty affected...
and at those times, I find that even though I am longing for someone to grumble to, to complain to, to confide in; I have never been able to tell these all to someone here for fear of it leaking out....and because I am unsure of the person's agenda....
this is bad....i really didn't want to become so suspicious and judgmental but sometimes, I really have to do so in the act of self-defense....
Occasionally, I talk to a few people whom I trust more, and I feel better....
BUT i do not want to start building alliances and all dat...it's reali tiring and yikey...
These are also the times which make me miss my family and friends in Singapore even more....

This is part of the experience here, and I fully understand that...I'm only grumbling now...but everything is under control.... =)

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I have also been thinking of my plans for the next one year and few years ahead....The experience here has changed me a lot, in many ways....
One of them is my mindset....It used to be a student mindset....No more....
It's very adult, very corporate now....I have been evaluating all kinds of career options that I will have access to in the next one year....

I know what I want to achieve, but I really need to organize my thoughts.....
Should I go for this, or that, or the third one, or another choice?
Maybe I will be guided on to one of the options naturally....
Maybe....

But I really do want to found a startup in the area which I am currently most interested in, have the strongest belief in, and have this vision of a better world....and my gut feeling, which is usually pretty accurate, tells me that I am on the right track...

More importantly, it is not simply for personal gain....
This is the direction Singapore needs to move forward....It requires a concerted effort....
Entrepreneurship has been receiving many booster packs from the government, but it take both hands to clap....Singaporeans need to take the step out ultimately....
I believe the government is on the right track too....In this aspect, I totally support its drive....

The International Advisory Council had the same advice for EDB in the annual meeting last week too....

Well, I wanted to talk about all my options, but let me leave it for another post...
I'm starting to feel groggy...which means, it's time for bed....

I don't really care about what some people want to do here anymore...I know my priorities, I know my goals, I know what are the most important things in my life, I know where I want to be in a year's time, I know how to get there...I will first complete this program, and return to Singapore to contribute to its vibrant growth....

18 daes to go before I fly back to Singapore for the competition....ohh, regarding this, it will qualify as an entire long blog post too....but again, that's something for another dae....

for now, goodnight all, hope everyone does well in exams! =p

Trust, Knowledge, Connected, Life...
Singapore and her new strategy in moving forward...
Proud to be a Singaporean... =)