Tuesday...

went to visit my grandma todae....hmm, my dad's side.....everytime i visit her, she'll wan to give me like $10, sth which i tink most grandmas would do....
for the last few yrs, maybe the last 2yrs in fact, i've tried not to take the money....partly cos i'm more grown-up and more matured in my thinking oredi.....
well, she's not working anymore and is not reali well-to-do....and has to depend on her sons and daughter to support her...so i reali didn't wan to take her money....i'd rather she spend the money on herself....sometimes it reali pains me to see her saving and scrimping and yet still wan to give me the $10....

actually frm late secondary sch onwards, i had never reali visited tis grandma dat regularly oredi....long story....so i'll skip to why in the last 2yrs, i made it a point to visit her regularly throughout the year....everytime going alone...
actually, i've alwaiz been closer to my mum and my mum's side's relatives....
my grandma (over here, i'm referring to my mum's side) was hospitalised for a few times a couple of yrs back...back then, i was still in ns.....
once....actually, it was the final time....when she was hospitalised for breathing problems, i visited her a couple of times in the hospital....
Then on this particular weekend, i had wanted to visit her on Sunday cos i wasn't in camp dat dae.....somehow i was tired or sth, i postponed it to Tuesday, the next soonest day when I could leave camp and visit her....
Well.....i've lived to regret dat decision....cos i missed her.....
She passed away on Monday.....and i wasn't in time to see her for the final time.....
I could onli ask for permission to leave camp and go over to my uncle's house, where the funeral would be carried out at the void deck.....

I felt reali remorseful about it....and i told my mum abt it oso.....Ever since then, I've told myself dat wat's the point of feeling upset when wat's done cannot be undone....
Which is why i've made it a point to visit tis other grandma on a more regular basis....I noe the youngsters of todae don reali visit their grandparents very often.....my sis and other cousins don visit my grandma other than on CNY.....
So when i go over to visit her, she's visibly happy....after all, since i'm the oldest grandson on both sides, and oso i'm usually the more sensible one, i'm usually the most doted on since young....
That's why i'll try to visit her a few times during my school holidays, which is like now....

I have been advised by one of my old neighbours, someone whom i respect alot....not to live with the feeling of guilt forever....well, i guess i'll never forget it....but it has served to teach me a very very impt lesson in life....
which is dat i shldn't procrastinate, shld never take thgs for granted and shld alwaiz cherish wat i hav in life....
So, i reali am grateful to my grandma for dat....

dat was 1 of the major turning points in my life....which partly explains the major change in me from sec sch and jc to before i matriculated.....

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well, nuttin much more to blog todae....the other half of it i've told XM abt it....i had wanted to blog it but well, my mood has changed after chatting with a few frens juz now....so i'm not going to blog abt dat now oredi....

hahaz, Meijia said she'll treat me to a movie....hahaz, she thot i was angry with her teasing juz now....she's reali very crappy lor....

yea....i'm catching the Da Vinci Code tmr....so well, more updates tmr.....feeling tired now after a weights-training workout tis aftn.....

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