Sunday...

finally decided to stay home todae....had a sudden impulse to go down to BIG at harbourfront to look for my mp4 player with Junhui (Wiseutd Junhui) but eventually decided against it as i felt too lazy to go out......
the onli place i'll be going is the swimming pool later followed by my optician to make my contacts....

i wanna get back my fitness soon, and a good shape at the same time...i gotta work hard at it....so todae spells my second fitness-recovering effort for tis week....

It's strange....but i've been feeling moody since morning.....i wonder why.....and after tinkin for awhile, i tink the biggest reasons are the ulcer in my mouth and my swollen foot....
darnz...i don even noe whether it is the ulcer or my wisdom tooth has grown out, i juz feel my tooth poking into the flesh of my mouth at the side....it's painful and the repeated jabbing action from eating and sometimes even talking reali pisses me off....i gotta go to the dentist soon, but i hope i wun hav to extract the wisdom tooth...the horrifying experience from doing so last sep was bad enuff....damn painful and bloody....

as for my foot....darnz...it's still swollen todae....and i still cant walk properly without a limp....well, it's just as well that badminton todae has been cancelled cos i don tink i could hav been able to play up to my normal standards.....and instead, risk further injuring my foot....
and so i applied ice treatment to my poor foot which resembles a pig's trotter now.....hope it'll get better by tmr....

don wanna tink abt the above 2 oredi......hmmm, well, i'm reali feeling very lazy todae....was hoping dat i'd enjoy reading the sunday times....but i guess when i feel moody, i juz am uninterested in everythg.....

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i've been watching videos at youtube more often of late.....well, i tink i've reali caught the 张韶涵 bug leh....cos i'm like obsessed with her oredi.....
dat angelic face of hers, dat sweet yet powerful vocals of hers, dat pair of bright eyes which seem to look through me when i look at them....altogether complemented by dat want-to-or-dont-want-to smile of hers.....is least to say, electrifying to me.....

okie....in short, i'm hooked on her.....like how i was on Valen Hsu for many many yrs....

and i would like to take back some of my words.....I said dat Tingting doesn't reali resemble ZSH....on closer look, the resemblance does seem to be uncannily impeccable now....especially in some of her MVs and advertisements she shot in Taiwan....

alright, enuff of dat....my dad juz came into my room and talked to me abt the mp4 player....and asking me to wait till 1st June, there's going to be an IT show at Suntec.....sorry, but i'm reali not in the best of moods right now....and didn't reali feel like talking....

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yah, while chatting with Isabelle last nite, we talked abt many topics....1 particular one was abt relationships...we both have had our fair share of experiences.....i told her abt my 'personal line' which i have to ensure dat i do not cross right now.....the line, which when crossed, often ensues in a path of no return.....the line, when crossed, results in me tinkin abt the same person 24/7.....which shld be pretty obvious wat i mean by my 'Personal Line'....

it isn't easy sometimes....and it gets harder when i hav free time on my hands....like now....i'm an ill-disciplined idiot when it comes to such matters....i noe myself very well....i sometimes reali can't seem to discipline myself very well and as a result, cross the line when i reali shouldn't.....

Isabelle said dat i seemed to be someone who believes more abt the ability to control my own destiny through my own efforts rather than fate....
after a bit of debating, i conceded to her thesis.....
maybe it's true.....cos i believe dat fate is the thing that brings ppl together....like for instance, if there was no fate between us, you (as a reader), wouldn't be reading this post right now, would you?
but how far can fate alone bring you?
Sure, we've all watched wonderful drama serials and movies of fate cruelly separating lovebirds or fate miraculously bringing 2 persons in love together....
but is dat reali realistic enough?
Sorry no, i beg to differ....those are ideal cases which are far and few in between.....I believe dat after fate has done its job, to bring 2 persons together, they themselves ought to put in effort to ignite any possible spark between them.....well, tink abt it....if u give u matchstick and a matchbox.....but u do nothing....
will there be fire? the answer is idiot-proof.....

Likewise, if you manage to start a fire, but there isn't someone there to share the warmth and light of the fire with you (meaning there's no fate), wat's the use of enjoying it alone?

People often fail to see the 2 sides of me.....Most ppl see me as a happy-go-lucky person who is fun-loving, funny, chatty....and maybe even entertaining.....cos rather often, that is the image i portray, or rather, that is the way i sometimes behave, even in sch....especially all thru pri, sec and jc....

What they fail to see is the serious side of me.....when i work (projs, studies or ccas), i am dead-serious....and am sharply focused on my desired objectives and team goals....i remain eagle-eyed on any common objectives until we hav achieved it.....

But why do i appear as more of the former case rather than the latter? dat's because the innate me is someone who wants to hav fun in life....of cos, the latter is equally important, and so i reserve it for the suitable times, and am onli so serious and solemn when it comes to real work....
Ask yourself....would you prefer to mix with a fun person or a serious nerd?
Don cheat urself....everyone's answer would be the former....

Well, after so much, wat i'm trying to say is dat i sometimes cause myself to miss certain opportunities because ppl onli see the fun side of me....and they don't take me seriously enuff.....in fact, the fun side of me is hiding my serious side, and i noe some ppl hav reservations abt my capabilities....
With regards to this, i go back the point abt fate....which is why i regard as important as well.....Why?
The reason is simple....if someone is fated to be with me, she'll get to see both sides of me....tis is mostly fate because the onli way to see both sides of me is to 1) hav fun tog with me, and 2) do some real work with me...

yah, so Isabelle wasn't exactly right as well....although i muz say she's quite observant too....
Fate and one's own efforts are both equally important...and i shan't discount the significance of either.....
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alright, i tink i hav voiced out enuff in tis post...going back to slacking and hope my mood picks up exponentially after this.....

i'M tRyinG not tO cRoSS my 'PerSonAL LinE'.....