Saturday...

tis is going to be a slightly longer post i guess.....had some things which i forgot to mention last nite, and many new thgs to add.....so if u r going to read it, pls bear with me....

Last nite, Xiaotian came over to my place.....dono wat she and my sis were doing in her room lah....shld be the usual girl's thingy.....yah, den at 1+am, while my sis was watching tv, XT dropped by my room and we started chatting.....
she machiam was interviewing me lydat at the start lor.....and i felt like i was being treated as a relationships guru, hahaz, question after question.....but it was a nice chat, it was a good exchange of perspectives as well....time passed very fast and before i realised it, we had chatted for 2hr+ oredi....and it was oredi 3.30am.....but she was staying over so it was alright lah.....i went to bed soon after dat cos i was reali tired out oredi....
yupz, probably will be going bowling with her sometime next wk, and maybe my sis and another of their fren too....i'm not sure yet, but i'm fine with any arrangement.....

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Next, ohh yah, didn't thank my EE bros enuff.....i guess i didn't do them justice by simply thanking them yesterday.....
Well, i owe my A- in EE2005 to Changsheng and Jiarong......without the former's help throughout the sem, i'd hav misunderstoods some concepts....esp the parts abt the DC Analysis vs Small Signal Analysis.....i had a small yet critical misunderstanding which he corrected....
Jiarong had helped me in our assignment which was probably 10%.....yah, without both of their help, i might not hav gotten tis grade....

Next, I owe my A- in EE2004 largely to Jiarong and Zhiwei.....one of the main chapters, that of the MOS capacitors, i totally had NO idea....i was completely and helplessly lost....the consultation with them for an hr was a reali fruitful one as i almost understood everythg at the end of the 1hr....

well, of cos, if i were to go on lytis, the thank you messages will never end....but yah, thot i had to give them more credit where it's due.....throughout this 1yr of friendship, they've helped me alot alot alot in many ways more than simply academic.....

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hahaz, yah, i hav many agendas to cover todae.....Next.....the 3 Musketeers....
a simple name which i affectionately call ourselves....Changsheng, Zhiwei and I.....i don reali noe y but it has juz been tis way since a long time back....when i started calling us trio by tis....

An old pic taken last yr at Secret Recipe J8

yea....amongst us 3, Changsheng's the most gifted in Engineering-related topics and basically anythg which is engineering and maths related....I had temporarily taken over the stronghold for a brief 1 semester last sem when i accidentally edged him slightly in terms of CAP....first, like wat i had said before, i reali don like to hav competition within my frens....so this description is purely for illustration purposes....

yah aniwaiz, i was sure he'd be back to the top in no time....and yea, i couldn't hav been more accurate in predicting dat....tis sem, despite having the toughest possible combi in EE2 (even tougher den mine), he got a whopping 4.72, pulling him way beyond me and an overall of 4.49.....he's oredi sitting on the hill.....and the next prediction which i'm going to make, and which i am very sure will be coming true....is dat he'll eventually graduate with a First Class Honours degree.....in fact, I can oredi foresee, next sem will see him climbing back into the >4.5 range......take my word on dat....if he is a stock, i'll definitely buy more of him....cos it's a profit-guaranteed stock....

in fact, he's acting as a source of inspiration for me too....and perhaps Zhiwei too.....with me at 4.43 and ZW at 4.38.....we r all pretty close....and I hav no doubts abt Zhiwei's ability to graduate with First Class Honours too.....i can foresee dat as well, but of cos, CS might probably go back into the >4.5 range sooner since he's oredi almost there....

U noe wat we hav been talking abt? the 3 of us.....sth which i reali wish can come true....dat is, for the 3 of us to graduate together with First Class Honours....
if dat can reali happen, it'll be a reali beautiful story written in this chapter of my life....i'll leave the wonders of this friendship to another dae....but if we can reali achieve wat we r envisioning, wow.....well, i'll be speechless....i...i don even noe how i'll react.....hahaz.....i'll probably go crazy with excitement and euphoria at our Commencement ceremony.....hahahaz....

it's possible u noe....i'm not ruling out dat possibility.....i hav all the confidence in the world abt them both.....for myself, i might hav to try even harder though, cos i noe i'm weaker in engineering-related fields as compared to them.....but i noe dat when they hav done it, they'll help me if i'm still short of the target.....

so....Yes.....todae thus witnesses the setting of a new goal for myself and for us, the 3 musketeers....
Goal: 3 of us to graduate with First Class Honours together!

yea! with a goal, with intelligent and close bros flanking me.....and with us helping each other along the way....it is definitely an attainable goal.....yAy! =)

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Next, we had a gathering tonite! i am so so happy to hav met them.....it was so much fun tonite....hahaz....the crapping, the teasing, the pool, the bowling, the drinks thereafter.....woohoo!

we met at 6.30pm at City Hall Mrt station......to accomodate Jiarong's work schedule for todae....
well, i first suggested having dinner at Changing Appetites cos i have the discount card and i thot the food there is actually quite nice....but wow....the queue was damn long....and Fiona suggested Hans instead....

wat happened next at Hans.....was spectacular......i'll leave it to the next section cos i wanna go into abit more detail.....yah....aniwaiz, after dinner at Hans, we went to the bowling alley....left our names...and while waiting, played a couple of games of pool in the arcade area....

hahaz, Jiarong, whom we noe is an avid fan of pool.....is challenging me to more games next week....i'm game of cos! hahaz, although i noe he is good, but i tink i'm not bad too....i used to play like twice a week in jc....hee....i didn't play truant, but juz nv do homework... =p
Yupz, i'm looking forward to dat....maybe sometime next week like we discussed juz now....

aniwaiz, Fiona was the one who suggested bowling, and everyone was very game for it too.....actually i'd hav agreed to almost anythg she suggests cos i feel dat as the onli girl arnd, and being Changsheng's gf, i'll definitely give in to her since she has had to 'sacrifice' time alone with CS and to join us....
but yah aniwaiz, she was a sch team player before and so we had oredi expected to be thrashed...and yes....we were all thrashed....hahaz.....a small frame lady....she is reali accurate with her spinning balls....hahaz....impressive...

For everyone's success! yAy! (Jiarong, Me, Zw, Fiona, Cs)

after dat, everyone wanted a drink, so Fiona suggested TCC......AHHHH!!! TCC, i've been there like once a week for the past 1mth! hahaz, i actually preferred other cafes, but since she hasn't been there before, i didn't mind oso lah....and i ordered tis Nourishing Banana Blend which is supposed to be nutritious....hehez....
yah....we were all feeling quite happy....and i toasted both Zhiwei and Changsheng for our success in our amphibious remote controlled vehicle project....wah, seriously lah, i'll never forget the times we all had to toil together.....tis is 1 memory which will be permanently etched in me....

yah....after dat, we left for home....and i reali wish we can meet up more often....the guys r busy....well, i'll organise sth soon again lor...hahaz....

ohh yea....CS treated us to dinner cos we tink he'll definitely be in the Dean's List! hahaz, congrats bro! i knew u could do it!

the next treat will be by me....later in June perhaps....nearer to the date when i'm going to depart for 1yr.....hmm, i'll leave my thots abt dat to another post.....

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Last but not least,....sth which i definitely muz pour out tonite....it's sth more personal though....

i've been reminding myself time and again dat i CANNOT cross the line.....i hav to concede dat i actually did so, albeit a little bit recently....but juz as when i thot i am pulling it back....fate gave me another strict test of my discipline....which occured todae in the form of bumping into them at Hans....

wat happened, one might ask....

was chatting with Meijia as usual last nite, yah, recently we've been talking more.....and tis morning oso smsing for awhile....and i knew they were going to ps for their gathering, she knew dat i had planned for our gathering to be at marina....
yah, so i was telling her dat hopefully wun bump into them cos my hair is like so damn short....a few ppl hav oredi said dat i look like an army boy.....tanned and short hair....
well, aniwaiz, she oso said dat she had thot of going marina later on, and dat they might actually go down if she's in the mood to cos she wanted to buy a bag....

i didn't give much thot to dat though.....but okie....where does the fate thing come in?
It comes in here.....Fiona suggested going to Hans....and so we were walking arnd Hans to wait for a seat....when suddenly Changsheng shouted over to me and exclaimed "Jinfa, Tingting and Meijia are here!!!".....

for a moment, i thot he was juz trying to be funny....cos they hav been teasing me...yah....and i'm used to it.....but everyone was oredi looking in his direction and giving me the "Really, he's speaking the truth" look....

so i walked over to say 'hi' too....inside, i was in disbelief.....where got so 巧? i didn't tink she'd reali go over to marina....and marina's so big....and the time factor too....it was accurate down to the finest of details....tis MUST be fate....i was tinking.....otherwise, wat could explain tis???

well, i visibly felt a little paiseh too, cos they kept pushing me to sit with Tingting and Meijia as the table they got (right behind theirs) had enuff seats for onli 4 persons....
I was oredi feeling kinda paiseh, so i insisted on sitting together...5 of us.....

Hmm....and Hans....i dono which of the 2 girls suggested it....but....i tink i might noe y.....well, dat isn't very significant so i wun mention here....
but.....to be honest, i was kinda happy to bump into MJ....
Yes, and here belies the problem....i tink i hav crossed the line slightly again....darnz.....juz as i hav managed to get back in front of the line, this peculiar yet interesting arrangement of fate has gotten me curious again....

Yah, i can reali click with her....and we're fast becoming better frens, but i tink i reali hav to enforce stricter self-discipline on my part....i cannot allow myself to cross the line now.....i'll onli be tormenting myself....
And sth which Xiaotian asked me last nite abt getting attached now....i didn't hav to hesitate in answering her...."No way" was my ans......it'll be totally selfish.....cos the other half will definitely be suffering more.....i'll be away for1yr u noe....not 1wk or 1mth.....i'm definitely sure abt tis...
So, no way am i going to start any courting of anyone or even tink abt it now.....

yupz....i don tink anyone who isn't supposed to be reading tis is reading it.....so yah....i reali don wan to do tis to myself, but until i can convince myself to step back in front of the line again.....i'll hav to reduce any kind of comm with her,....well, i'll probably not take the initiative to establish contact till i've pulled myself in front of the line again.....

yah....anythg pertaining to relationships.....my ans is still the same....to anyone who asks me dat qns....
"Next yr den say....when i come back".....

it's my onli option, and it's the most sensible option.....
give me dat 1yr to become a stronger, more capable and better person.....den i'll be more worthy of my prospective gf in future......whoever i'll be lucky enuff to find then....

Ohh yea...shld hav defined tis earlier on....
Cross the line = Being interested enuff to consider possibly taking the friendship to a special level in
future....

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pretty long post....but feels good pouring it all out.....i dono if i might hav left anythg out again...hahaz....but yah....as usual, i'll fill in the gaps in the next post if there are any....

ohh yah, pardon my language tis daes....i noe it's going haywire....but i sometimes am too tired to use better language.....tired to tink....

for now...nitez....

buiLd uP tHe fRenShiP fiRsT.....oTheR tHgS cAn, and MusT wAit...
A new goAL: CS, ZW and I to gRAd wItH FirsT-ClAss tOg.... =)